It’s True What They Say
20-Somethings are totally selfish.
Fuck it. People are totally selfish.
I have spent the last couple months totally engrossed in myself. Not in the good, introspective way either, mostly just the anxious, stressed out way. I haven’t really done much of anything besides being anxious, stressed out and working. Let me tell you something: work+stress+anxiety does not = happy MG. Shocking, I know. I haven’t even blogged, which is weird, since its just about the most self indulgent thing that I do…
I am on the verge of making a HUGE (ie: selfish) change in my own life. Theoretically, in a couple weeks I will be on a one way flight to New York for a month on an organic farm before my big, “see if I can hack it” in NYC. I say theoretically because I have done very little to actually put this into action. Are all 20-somethings terrible at committing and expert procrastinators? Because I am, and I’d really like to blame it on my age.
My mom thinks I’m selfish because life is always about my next “big adventure.” I don’t know how to explain to her that to me, its not about adventure, its simply about my life. While I still have the freedom, opportunity and independence to “adventure,” I will..and why not? I’ve got my idealism in my left pocket and my youth in my right. I may as well take advantage of that. As my Buddha app told me yesterday:
I think the man’s got a point. I’m in the discovery phase. You may call it selfish if you wish. I’m really counting on the fact that it’s going to make me a better person though.
What’s so bad about being selfish (as long as its not the stressed out, crazy type)? If you are taking care of yourself, you’ll be more able to care for others. That’s my theory at least, and I am sticking to it.
So maybe it’s just me who’s selfish. That’s okay. I’m going to own it.
